Today I started believing in my purpose.
For the past year, I've been on a crazy journey. One that many people don't understand. My husband tries to understand it. Sometimes I don't even understand it! A year ago I decided I was really going to make my home business work.
What does that even mean??
In the spring of 2013, I left my nine year corporate job because I felt my family needed me at home. I felt like I was suppose to be home with my then nine month old chubby baby. I felt like I needed to take some pressure off my husband when we had the "who's going to get the sick kid from daycare" phone call. I just felt that I wasn't meant to be at my workplace. I was meant for something outside those office walls. And in 2013, I thought that meant I was suppose to be home with my family.
But making that decision added a new pressure to our lives. Financially we cut our income in half. Just walked away from it. We thought the numbers looked good enough on paper and decided it was time to make a change. Just like that. I remember getting ready for my last day of work and thoughts of financial ruin kept flashing through my head. That's when this simple verse from a church song popped into my head, "God will provide for all that you need. Here at the table of plenty." And like that, I knew we were doing the right thing.
Fast forward to 2014 and the right thing didn't feel right anymore. We were constantly stressing about money because we didn't factor in "fun" money into that budget. With me now home ALL. THE. TIME. this momma needed to go have fun every now and then! I'm talking out for supper every now and then. Not even a vacation! Just something that simple like going out to eat was gone. It started to make at home life pretty lonely. With a commuting husband and a stir crazy wife, you can only imagine some of the conversations that went on in our household.
The spring of 2014 to today has been a journey of perseverance. It has been a journey of commitment. It has been a journey of trusting in the Lord's plan for me. I know I am meant to be an at home wife/mom but I am also meant to be an at home working mom. I am meant to manage our household and a business. I am meant to be there for my family whenever they need me but provide financially. I am meant to give back to others. I am meant to coach others to live a life that they can only dream about. I am designed for more, just like I believed when I left that corporate job two years ago. There is something greater out there for me.
Today it was confirmed. Today all that doubt, fear, and guilt came crashing down. Today catapulted Shaklee Corporation into the next 100 years of innovation. To be a business partner with this company makes me proud. To know that I have the power to change people's lives for the better makes me know I'm working my purpose. To know that my team has the ability to create a community of possibility for other families moves me to tears.